As much as I would really like to be there with the only people I consider true friends...I just can't make it this year. I've been flipping the coin in my head on going or not for a while now as you all know. I even put in PTO at work so I could be off that week in order that no one at work would take my spot.
It's just best that I stay home because of my mom's condition. About a week ago mom gave up, quit chemo, and tried to get into Hospice so they could take care of her until the end. She's just tired of living like this. After having a consultation with her doctor trying to get into Hospice they wouldn't take her because she wasn't "sick enough" to be entered. So now mom is back on chemo (with the encouragement of nurses and myself) and going to the chemo clinic just about everyday. As of last night mom isn't doing good right now but it's like she does good one day and next day it's bad. She is at the point where she can't do anything without my help or someone else.
I really want and need to "get away from it all" but that would be very selfish of me. And I know mom "You go on... I'll be fine."...She's like that....Yeah right ... in the back of my head I would be worrying about her the whole time I would be gone...lol
Ya'll ride and be safe.

Stay with your mom you only have one
 
With all love intended brother, stay with your mom. You are making the right call. I am lifting my coffee cup to you and your mom this morning.
@mully95 what boog said brudda. You're doing the right thing.

My brother and I went through it with our Mom a few years ago. One day we will sit around the campfire and and swap stories.
 
Mully i was with my mom the last week of hospice, she was in Richmond where she raised us, it was hard to see mom like that, she was fighting so really made it heart wrenching, my brother went out fighting to about 5 minites before he passed, kept saying junior get me up, i really admire you as i know how hard it is to see them like that and i pray for peace that passes all understanding at this time in youlls life. When its done and you can i hope to ride with you one day as we smile thinking about them. Be blessed brother.
 
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